Blogtober Burnout

Halfway Through

And I feel done.

I’m glad I committed to this. Just like I’m glad I committed to the entire book of Hosea. It has exposed in me my own flippancy, and determination.

Flippancy

How am I flippant? Well, after slugging through Hosea I wasn’t sure of my writers determination, and now only halfway though Blogtober I’m really unsure.

I still want to write a book, but I’m unsure if I will be able to stick with it. This has been a good practice in perseverance for one who wants to give up when the going gets slow. I guess I get bored easily and am ready to move on to the next thing. I appreciate these commitments for growing in me the steadfastness I will need to finish my project (if I ever do start, 😊)

Determination

These small, slow projects have shown me the extent of my own determination. I have not quit yet. Even though I feel like it. I will own that my mild attempt to memorize Philippians ended in a blaze of inglorious post deletion, but these exposures of my weakness will only serve to root them out!

Hebrews 12:1

This reminds me of Hebrews where it talks about setting off the things that entangle and slow down our run of faith (sin) and run with endurance!

I need to continue to run the race of my calling. It’s all a part of that race marked out for me. So if I can set off my flippancy and hold fast to faithful determination in the end I will win. Maybe not my goals of writing a book, but the greater goal being faithful to my calling.

A perspective reset is always helpful for my day! A new page!

Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us…