And I feel done.
I’m glad I committed to this. Just like I’m glad I committed to the entire book of Hosea. It has exposed in me my own flippancy, and determination.
How am I flippant? Well, after slugging through Hosea I wasn’t sure of my writers determination, and now only halfway though Blogtober I’m really unsure.
I still want to write a book, but I’m unsure if I will be able to stick with it. This has been a good practice in perseverance for one who wants to give up when the going gets slow. I guess I get bored easily and am ready to move on to the next thing. I appreciate these commitments for growing in me the steadfastness I will need to finish my project (if I ever do start, 😊)
These small, slow projects have shown me the extent of my own determination. I have not quit yet. Even though I feel like it. I will own that my mild attempt to memorize Philippians ended in a blaze of inglorious post deletion, but these exposures of my weakness will only serve to root them out!
This reminds me of Hebrews where it talks about setting off the things that entangle and slow down our run of faith (sin) and run with endurance!
I need to continue to run the race of my calling. It’s all a part of that race marked out for me. So if I can set off my flippancy and hold fast to faithful determination in the end I will win. Maybe not my goals of writing a book, but the greater goal being faithful to my calling.
A perspective reset is always helpful for my day! A new page!
Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us…